Saturday, December 11, 2010

Synecdoche, New York

Recently, I was about to actually sit down and watch a movie  by myself. I finished the bulk of my finals for his semester and I deem myself worthy of a film. Let me tell you first off that this movie is depressing, perhaps a better word for it may be "existential". It really does beg the question "why are we here?" but in the end, I suppose that is the only answer.

The movie I am slowly revealing to you is Synecdoche, New York. I don't want to spoil much of the film because I feel like its the kind of movie where each and every one of us will take a different part of the film and claim it as our own. 

If you're even mildly interested in watching this film then please don't hesitate to ask me. Ever since the first viewing, I've made plans to see it again.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010


I know it has been awhile since I last updated. It is not because I've been swamp with work or anything, I am just dicking around really. I am slowly getting reorganize with my life again because it was pretty frustrating not having a set list of things to do for the day.

I've made huge progress with my weight gaining goals though. I think it was the end of August when I was weighing in at 137 pounds. Given that I am about 5'11, I was stick skinny as many of you have been well aware. Nowadays I am carrying 155 pounds in the morning and 160 pounds before bed time. Given that most of it is muscle (granted there is some fat in there, trust me) I am pretty proud of my self.

I figure that this is the last year for me to make a huge impact in my physical appearance. I am not talking about the superficial things like clothes and what not but actually my body. Next year, I will be attending medical school and I won't have as much time to work out like I do now. I do hope that I can make the time out for everything once I settle down.

Everything is just hitting me right now that I have to grow up soon. Starting next year, everything I learn will have a direct impact on my career and I just can't risk messing that up. That is partly the reason why I am so laid back now because I know I will never have the chance to be this free again with out some consequences.

I know this update is rather mundane relative to my first update but I can assure you that once I set some time out for blogging, instead of jumping on whenever, then I will have some quality stuff for you guys :).

Oh if any one is good at finding discounts for computers and the required accessories can you please help me? I am looking at getting a netbook + a desktop next year. Hopefully less than 1.2k for both. I still have a lot of time to look but personally I like shopping with my eyes and doing some research before I actually buy everything.

No pictures today :( I need to do laundry and cut my hair.

Thursday, October 28, 2010


Not a huge update but I just want to post what classes I am taking next semester just in case anyone wants to be entertain by me through out class.

BIOL 217 Nutrition- TR 8-9:15
SOCS 340 Human Sexuality TR 11-12:15
BIOL 455 Immuno TR 5:30-645
PSYC 309 Personality R 7-9:40 PM

If everything goes according to plan, I should have MWF off. 

As for now, I am just going to eat lunch and relax. I had an exam this morning and now I am tired. 

See. I am barely awake. 

This however woke me up.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010


Here I am! Early-twenties and still chasing the same dreams I had when I was still pretending to be Tommy from power rangers. However, I came to a realization that no one ever told my story. Jesus got a story, hell even the Korean lady who got her seat jacked on the bus got a story told about her. At least I think she is Korean, I am just going by the last name here and all the people I know who has "Park" as a last name is Korean. Anyway, I feel it is my turn to get a story and since no one else is doing it, I feel obligated to do so.

So where do we start? I am not even sure to be honest. I feel like I have so much on my mind right now that even a pensieve (for all you harry potter fans out there) can't even hold the shear amount of memories and in turn, the stories I have for you. Luckily for you there is a part of me that wants to tell a story so embarrassing that it took me about a decade to go public with it so lets just get it out of the way.

I am sure you've told your friends about that one period in your life where you looked completely like an awkward turtle. Your hairstyle was disgusting, your sense of style atrocious, and your face... oh god your face. Let me tell you something though, that period in your life is nothing compared to what I had to endure. For me the awkward phase lasted around 10 years, from when I was eight until I was a little over eighteen. Basically half of my life.

Before we begin, there is something you need to know about me though. Throughout the entirety of that phase, I was happy. I believed and was confident that I was on attractive side as far as looks are concerned. 

Take for instance me now:

Yeah, the posture is kind of rigid but if there is enough alcohol and the lights are dimmed, I can probably pass for a D-list Asian actor.

Moving on, like I said I was happy throughout my life. So imagine how you would react, if you were me, when you heard that one of your friend's mom said that you look border-line retarded. 

I mean that is absurd right? Just look at my face. 

Tragically though, as hard as I tried to forget those spoken words, it was never forgotten. 

I can only recall little moments from that day. I remember my pictures from a ski trip were passed  around and I was just caught in the middle of all of the discussion.

Lucky me. 

Even more fortunate was the fact that I stumbled upon these pictures years later and let me sincerely tell you guys... I look like a fucking retard.

Let me try to save some face before everything gets real by saying that I was wearing my dad's winter gear because I stupidly forgot to pack a coat and some gloves on a ski-trip. I would like to add that I have a very small frame and his stuff were literally hanging on my bones. Also to make sure that you don't laugh at anyone else but me, Patrick is on the left of this photo and he does have Down's Syndrome. To your far right is your target, your beloved, and the person you will no longer take seriously after this post.


Honestly, I don't know what more I can say. I want to blame it on the sun and the glare it created on my thick glasses but that does not explain the face whatsoever. I do hope you realize from this point on that you can never tell me that you looked horrible when you were 12. 

... Maybe one day I will show you my middle school yearbook pictures.